After I saw you

After I saw you
I went home
and meditated on magic.
I sat in the dark
and let my heart
dart back through the years,
tracing curves, and twists and swerves
that led to now,
and how we each took a different direction
That fed us right back
into connection.

After I saw you
I went home
And meditated on love.
I sat in the dark
and let my heart
expand so much
it broke apart.
Seeing you there
I was so surprised
I could have cried
and I think I did
but I hid it from you.

My body was trembling
while my heart was remembering
and my mind was assembling
the things you say
when just there’s no way
to convey
what you feel
when you get what you need
to help you heal.

After I saw you
I went home
and meditated on gratitude.
And I have to hand it to
the Powers who knew
just whose face
would help replace
struggle with grace.

After I saw you
I went home with faith restored
The past unmoored
And a sense of knowing
it’s time to move forward.
It’s time.
It’s time.

Leah Pearlman